"I dunno if they'd let me. It's a whole system and I was trying to avoid attention. Besides, I don't want to risk Teddy." He wanted to but he felt like of uneasy. What if he fucked up? He nearly always fucked up. "I always fuck up, it's what I do. What if I fucked up and I risked Teddy? He needs his dad and Mick is such a good dad!" And he couldn't ruin that. He couldn't take that away from the kid.