catchacold | Drop Out

I understand, I'd never want to cost you that.

I'll back off. I can do that. But if you ever need me, come to me. And hey, we could still text and stuff? Nothing incriminating. Just a hi sometimes :)

I'd like that.

I'm sorry. It's not as if I have a lot of time to be a good friend anyway.

I don't know. You have no time all the time and you're still a great friend.

You're too harsh on yourself.

I think I'm smarter than almost everyone, so I don't know about that.

What are your plans for the future, Barry? You said you wanted to work for the police.

You know you're smart and brilliant but you don't think you're much of a person people would want around. You're wrong.

I want to be a CSI. Hence the AP chem lessons.

I don't know. I suppose if you want me around, others might too. My sister's a big fan as well.

You'd be great at that. I mean, you could excel anywhere. Solving crimes is worthwhile though.

You have a little sister? That's so cool. How old is she?

I want to help solve crimes. It all I've ever wanted to do, I want to help people and get justice, it's important. Though I am super tempted to go hang out at STAR labs and do my internship there this summer. Dr. Wells did offer.

She's two, she's tiny. She wants me to come home straight after school every day. She doesn't cry if I don't, she just gets really sad.

Wow. I wish I could work with Dr. Wells one day. You're so lucky. You deserve it, but still.

That's so adorable! I'll make sure you can always get home on time for her if I can. She deserves you time.

I can put a good word in for you, if you want.

She is adorable. She likes my music too, she's the only other person I've written songs for.

No, I have to work with Rathaway Industries. Obviously.

You write songs? Dude, that's amazing. Can you show me some time? ... Covertly? Top secret music sharing!

Oh. I forgot. Damn. I'm sorry!

The song I played today, I wrote that for you.

It's okay. My future has been mapped out since I was born. There's security in that. It's not a bad future.

Really? You should have told me. It was beautiful. I really loved it.

At least you'll have money. Hey, maybe I can do an internship with you as well. We could hang.

There wasn't a heterosexual way to tell you that.

Lots of money. Just need to get out of any arranged marriages. But there's a thought. You can look at the programmes we offer, if you're interested I'm sure I can get you into any of them.

I don't think I'm heterosexual so don't worry about it. I've been googling actually! Is that sad... I can't tell? I was confused. Which usually means bi but I could be pansexual? Which is a thing I just learned about.

Do you have many chemistry type things? I know Rathaway Industries is mostly all about the tech and the bio-chemistry. Less my speed.

I don't know. I'm gay. I'm very gay. The most gay. And you might be pansexual, if that feels right to you. I've hoped I might be. Doesn't look like it. Do you think it will be a problem with your family?

We have some chemistry programmes. You can google, when you're done with your sexuality lesson. Once I finish some of my advanced studies I can decide what projects we pursue.

I'm sorry, I hope one day you'll get to be who you want to be and love who you want. And, well, my family consists of one dad. Who is in jail. For killing my mom. He didn't do it! But ... well, I think me being gay is very, very low on his list of things to be upset over. I have like two other 'dads' and they fight over me a lot, that's Wells and Joe, he's a cop, and neither legally has me but I bounce around them. Technically I'm emancipated.

I'm pretty deep down the sexuality rabbit hole. Oh boy, people do not like demisexuals, do they? And cool, I'll check it out when I'm free.

I likely won't, but I'll get to do a lot of the things I do want to do. And I'm sorry, Barry. Now I feel bad for asking like that.

That's because demisexuality isn't a sexuality so much as it just says something that's pretty standard for most people anyway. Some just want to have labels.

I hope you'll be able to be happy. And it's cool! I mean, I'm going to be a cop and then I'll be able to help my dad and I'm a lot better off than most people. I have two people who've got my back, I'm pretty happy overall and Joe cooks for me whenever I come over. I miss my dad but it can't be helped.

I guess. Well, I'll go with pan. It's a shame I can't have the boy I want but I can deal.

That's why you care so much about bringing justice, I get it. Now it all makes so much sense. Well, I know you'll manage. You're smart and I don't say that to everyone.

What boy do you want?

My dad was framed, I know he was. I'm going to prove it one day. And that's why I need all that I can learn here, I want all the knowledge I can get.

Look in a mirror, dummy.

I believe in you. Your dad has to be a special person.

I didn't want to assume.

Barry, I'm not sorry I kissed you. I'm just sorry I can't do it again. No matter what it costs me, I will never be sorry I kissed you.

I know. I'll never regret that we got to do it, I'm just sad we'll never get to do it again. Thanks for being an amazing first kiss.

But I don't want to be the reason you lose your family. I know how hard it is to lose your family.

My sister needs me. She is so sweet. She has some development problems, her brain works differently. My parents aren't very good at handling their children not being the way they should be.

I don't mind being a Rathaway. It just hurts that I can't be myself and like who I like.

I won't interfere. She needs you more than I ever will. And I like that we had our time together, even if it was a brief.

And I get we have to keep distance but don't stop talking to me. I like you.

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